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Guess who forgot the keys again? Me! Anyway, I've just gone back from the Tax Office and got educated on, you guess it, tax. I made my first yearly tax report and it's quite easy. Am I still confused about some things related to it? Why, yes, of course. However, I'd like to learn step by step on how to understand it all. Really hope that my parents will come back home real soon. My butt is cramping up sitting on the ground like this! P.S. Today's my birthday! Love, Daud.

Seriously I've had numerous occasions where I'd go to a website and apply for a job as listed on it. Plenty of times applied, plenty of times rejected. Personally, I've faced plenty of problems regarding this experience. There are far too many companies out there that seek for loyalty and trust, but when I really get to think about it, it's more of a problematic facade. After all, even with further prospect of getting accepted into the position available, I'm still a jobseeker who is yet to be accepted. There's some kind of dissonance here; it seems to me that companies and their loyal and trusted people expect job seekers to place their mental condition as if they're already a part of the successful company without acknowledging that it hasn't even happened. It's quite disheartening to experience this. It does feel manipulative, in a way, though I'm not going to start accusing or blaming some parties yet. More and more these days it feels harder...

Rumination Many times I've found myself asking about the relevance of my recent activities as someone who's unemployed and also in need of new sensations just to make my life seems filled with, at least, something rather than nothing. I began to observe my own behavior and perhaps, even, habit that I kept on doing on daily basis. Almost appears as a cycle, my constant need to surf the web/internet to take a look at certain things such as popular music and popular culture, movies, comic books specifically the X-Men, and basic graphic design on a site like Photoroom. I've been trying to find new jobs for me and that hasn't been fruitful. I find myself leaning towards the tendency to compensate my lack of activities, courtesy of not having a job, with mundane tasks that are available as long as my internet data plan is enough to do so. As a portion of my life is dedicated to spend time on the worldwide web, the other portion goes into doing even more ordinary things at hom...

I wrote these sentences on May 21st  at 13:39 on my paper diary. It's a song — or at least supposed to be one—called " Under the Skyline ". If all of the things I've said would not bring me closer to heaven, If all of the things I've ever done would only bring me blues. Will I ever get to break through? Will I ever succeed or will I fail? The things that I've once believed have never been able to tame me And everything I've once held dear has only made me fool. Would you care enough to guide me Through my forsaken faith and bated breath? 'Cuz under the skyline, there's so much I knew I had to do, I know for sure, my whole life Have been searching for some kind of answer That I've tried to find but never did. How will I know if there's ever gon' be tomorrow? How can I trust my faith when I'm already losing hope? And how will I learn not to cling onto hope If it only gon' bring me great sorrow? I don't know. Will I ever get t...

Fascinating No, really.  I am Christian. Not my name, of course, but my faith. However, it's also notable that the faith/religion is deep rooted in Hebrew Judaism rather than appearing out of nowhere. I mean, wasn't Jesus Christ a man from Israel? As an Indonesian who gets to be a Christian, it's been sorta strange. After all, Indonesia itself has plenty of indigenous faith native to the territory. But those beliefs would just be classified as paganism, wouldn't they? Filtered through the lens of Westernism, such as European or American approach (or both!), the experience of the Christians vary from one place to another. For  this  Christian, however, it really is peculiar. Knowing Indonesian relations with Israel, and Palestine, plus an awareness of how much of my life is dictated by this admittedly foreign yet not exactly  pagan  faith while at the same time something more native to my homeland should just be labeled as plain archaic belief...yeah....

Nobody's gonna know Oh, they're gonna know. How will they know? 'cuz I'm gonna tell them! So, I failed the job test that I had told you readers about in the first entry of Diary of D. Well, it's not that I failed, but it felt like that. So sad... anyway . I'm currently writing this from my mobile phone, that's why it feels sort of weird. It's alright, I guess. I think life has been very patchy and rocky and welpy for me. Optimism is very much needed to sustain my sanity. I'd like to believe that things will get better like what Agnez Mo had said multiple eons ago in her Indomaret album that's still not available anywhere else, not even digitally like girl wyd, but I don't know. Now, I currently feel dejected. But, I will rise again. Just you wait, world, I'm coming to get my bright future! Yas! 😊

I'm back Good evening everyone! It's currently eleven p.m. here in Jakarta, Indonesia, and I've just finished my test. What test you may ask? Well, a job test of course! So here's my situation: I had graduated with a bachelor's degree in Political Science back in September of 2020, went back to East Jakarta from Medan, have been living with my parents since then and...voila! Nothing else! Imagine my frustration. Too intense. Anyway, I've been seeking and applying for various jobs since March (maybe April) of 2021. It's been no use so far, and I think I know why, because my experience is minuscule. I mean, I pretty much had no other activities during college because all I knew about was studying nonstop. So, that's what I did. Until I didn't. I need to tell you how infuriating it was to be unable to contact my lecturer as I was making my final paper. It was so bad, definitely don't want to experience it again. My lecturer wasn't a bad person b...

Hey everyone, how's your life? Great, or just ordinary like usual? Me? Great of course! Today is the worldwide MOTHERS' DAY which means, this day (Tuesday..) is the day of every mothers in every continent of this world. Or I mean in Earth. Happy Mothers' Day! How much you love your mom? As big as the whole world, or just a little bit? For me, it's so big. Too big even to be compared with the Earth. Seriously, this is no joke. I still remember when my mom taught me since I was still a little innocent kid (LOL who knows I was that innocent XD ok stop!) until now, the moment which I'm a teenager now... And still wondering about how hard her efforts to make me like my... ughhh... MEALS.... LOL I know that's funny! But you must know one thing about me. When I was little, I was very hard to eat. Even to chew my food, it took up almost 10 minutes. I'm serious! It may sound very strange and unlikely, but it is true! I just want to eat if there were any crackers ...

Now, I'm back with a story (or just my own opinion about this girl... ok this is awkward) about one of my followers and also.... The one that I follow too on Twitter! Actually she is my senior's sister ( @Lolitana70 ) in 126 Junior High School, Jakarta... And I realized that I've revealed their personal twitter acc here LOL XD So, this girl... This Unexplainable dumb girl (it's her name on twitter, don't hashed me please...) is really awesome! Want to tell something about her... She's a RUSSSHHHHERRRR!!! So changed back my font into normal and back to story lol... Like I was said before, she's a Rusher! You don't know Rusher? Are you exactly don't know about Rusher? Are you serious don't know?!!! ...... Then you're a dumbass ...... Rusher is the name of Big Time Rush 's fans.... (psshhh... If you don't know BTR, then I will kick you out now!) I love BTR . She loves BTR . Everyone loves BTR . And if you're not, go f*ck up yo...

Hi everyone. Seems like I had been left this blog in a few days :'( but don't worry people, I'm back now! Even though I'm so tired now because of all these things called "exam-week" which is totally worse week for me hmmhh-_-" Just for info, actually I supposed to study now. But until right now, I'm still in front of my notebook screen, and write this post.... You know, I think those things above are sooooooooo....... unimportant._. Back to my story... Huh, what the hell was going on with peoples, they keep cheating until this period of time. I meant, seriously, why must they cheat? Are all the exams too hard for them? Really, I don't understand with them all-_-" AND THEN, this still makes me laugh. My friends in school, all of them are.... act like they do not know me.  Hey, I meant, guys! I'm here hello.... Put your eyes in front of your head please-_-" And also, today my teacher is on her birthday. Her name is *psshhh, that...

Yapz! gw balik lagi nih sekarang. Malam semuanya, Happy Valentine Day everyone! (dan gw disini cuma galau gajelas gara" hari valentine ini-_-") Sekarang gw pengen cerita tentang teman gw satu ini nih, namanya Dita. Lengkapnya sih Dita Anggraini, tapi panggil aja Dita elah. Pengen banget dipanggil nama lengkapnya, berasa artis-,- wkwk Soooo...... Dita tuh salah satu teman sekelas gw. Awal masuk X-4 tuh, sebenarnya gw ga terlalu deket sama dia. Biasa aja. Ga kenal bahkan-_-" Eh, ternyata dia itu K-Popers! Dan dari situlah perkenalan gw dan pertemanan kita dimulai.... *emang lo temen gw dit? wkwk XD* xoxo... Jadi Dita itu orangnya... tebak sendiri deh gimana :'))) takutnya kalo gw kasih tau, ntar dibogem gw sama orangnya. LOL haha XD Bercanda deng gw.... Dita itu, baik sih. Udah itu aja.... singkat kan? HAHAHAHA *ketawa soimah* Gw berasa EVIL deh nulis ini, haha 3-))) Jadi.... ya gitulah. Dia baik, cantik (hueekkkhhhhh..... sumpah gw eneq di bagian sini, mual tib...

So.... I want to write some stories here. But I will concern to my beloved *huueekhhh* friend in school named, Karlina!!! Jadi, gw mulai dari sini ya. Karlina Nabila itu, nama salah seorang teman gw di kelas X-4. Dia bendahara gitu, agak galak sih. Ya gitulah.... note: tinggal dikasih duit juga jinak XD So..... gw ngerasa postingan gw yg ini ga bakal selucu biasanya. Tapi gw bakal berusaha, karena gw udah janji sama Karlina bakal nulis sesuatu tentang dia. Kalo ngga dipenuhi..... SILAKAN BAYANGKAN APA YANG AKAN TERJADI :'))) *angin semilir* *pohon pun bergoyang* *backsound suara kuntilanak* Karlina itu punya beberapa panggilan di kelas. Mulai dari Karlina, Lina, Gondezz, sampe Nci Glodokhhh... ....tertawalah sepuasnya, haha.... *evil laugh* Ya, kalau kalian baca blog gw yang sebelumnya, pasti kalian bakalan tau dia. Dialah si nci" glodokhh yang ada dibalik rencana ulangtahun Ivana Josephine a.k.a Ipong... LOL XD Karlina itu, jujur nih ya.... cantik sih sebenarnya, cum...

Hai semua! Hari ini, setelah berabad-abad gw ga nulis apapun di blog ini, akan mulai berkicau (dikira twitter-_-") lagi. Yeahhhh!!! Sekarang, gw bakal cerita tentang pengalaman gw di sekolah dua hari yang lalu... Dimulai saat gw membantu teman gw, Ivana, menemukan jam tangannya yang hilang... Waktu itu, kelas gw a.k.a X-4, baru selesai belajar Biologi. Kita semua pun kembali ke kelas. Lalu negara api pun datang dan menghancurkan kelas dan... tunggu, ini cerita apaan._.? Ok, balik ke cerita. Pas gw dan yang lainnya udah balik ke kelas, terdengar suara Ivana nangis. Gw tadinya ga sadar kalau yang nangis itu dia, tapi pas gw lihat ke bangkunya, benarlah! Dia lagi nangis dengan syahdunya (?) Teman-teman gw pun mengerubunginya seperti segerombolan semut apa lebah gitu... Halahh, ngaco lagi kan >.< Terus, gw pun ke Ivana. Gw nanya, "Lo kenapa Van?" Dia pun jawab gw dengan kata-kata mengejutkan bagaikan petir di siang bolong! "JAM GUE HILANG......